Yes.
Life is Life.
It always is.
SO many things happened recently
occupied.overwhelmed me.
GMS project is finally over in another 24 hrs.
Most difficult period in a semester. EVER.
with 2 free-riders in a group,
it can only drive my blood pressure up so high
I tremble with anger as I talked to one on phone.
I gotta juggle my work during wkends,
yet at the same time deal with these 2 parasites who:
1. Failed to send in their work despite emails & smses to rush em
2. Gave sub-standard work to me & my poor teammate a few hrs before deadline
3. Claimed to have done their part dutifully
4. Made my poor teammate wait for nth on Sat night till 4a.m due to empty promises
5. Presented & talked as if they were part of the group’s efforts during Q&A
6. Accused us of not having done some financial analysis blah blah.
Period.
They deserve to rot in hell.
I have only have a pair of hands to type.
I gotta work during wkends. esp with a ongoing promotion that drive me nuts
Yet, these people just feel so justified that they can do nth about it.
One claims that she has to work; So do I.
The other claimed that he’s sick, had quarrels with Dad blah blah;
So do I.
Why can’t you come up with better excuses to offer to me?
I slogged out my entire week
barely asleep; barely awake
I sincerely hope that they will fail this module & not graduate.
Yes, I am mean.
But they are worse…
Simply because they expected the report & presentation slides to fall from the sky.
I was trembling from fear while I typed away in the lab with my teammate
with only few hrs left towards deadline
Where were you and what were you doing?
No calls, no smses
Simply because you dun care.
I hope justice will prevail,
but ultimately, it lies in the hands of my professor…
Tomorrow it shall end.
I am so looking forward to our last collaboration
cos I really wanna see how hard you try to contribute & fake it in front of the class
Fake it hard please. Cos I will not be convinced by you. At all.
Marcomm is killing me on the other hand.
made me cabbed back & fro to NTU on Sun as I work.
so as to be in the discussion,
only to be given some nasty work to do on my own.
how nice.
I cant even be compared to a guy that is absent from the discussion?
my luck is sooo bad,
that no matter how hard I try
I get nowhere.
NOWHERE.
My mom doesn’t have the time to talk to me nicely,
but knows how to put me down aft I am back from interviews.
Yes I know i can’t the 10K salary that you want me to,
so?
I know my loan’s gonna tick away,
so?
I am not even a bit interested in whatever interviews I am attending now.
Do you even care?
“Do something related to banking please,”
Come on, I know that. Clearer than anyone else.
But beggars cant be choosers now. Even in the next few years!!!
My brother’s wedding drawing nearer,
which means I will have to move back to my room
& squeeze with my younger bro
in a small, tiny & stuffy room.
the space isn’t really huge frankly.
it’s probably the size of 2 toilets.
yet I am gonna bury myself with 2 beds, tons of books that my mom keeps,
table, chairs, making space for my bro’s clothes in my already full wardrobe.
it is a terrible scene that I dare not imagine.
living conditions will be worse than ever..
I really wish I can move out of the place.
Root to the problem I am gonna face:
My brother got married way too EARLY!!!
we will have 6 people in the house,
fighting for the ONE bathroom in the morning at 6ish.
it’s hell.
their new flat only gonna come in 3 years’ time?
what am i supposed to do?
PLUS, I have no say in this family.
No one takes me seriously,
Even my younger bro hated me for coming home in wkends.
I protested vehemently, but there is no democracy.
Simply because girls in this house has not SAY!
And worst of all, I am the only girl in this house.
Which era am I even living in? Where is gender equality?
Why should I be solely responsible for my dad’s retirement plan?
Why should I be solely responsible for my younger bro’s future living expenses?
They are dying to hear that I found a job,
so that my dad can stop working,
pay for my younger bro’s future poly education,
contribute massively to the household,
bring the entire family on tours around the world,
when I have no say in this family.
I am not even the eldest child in this family to start with!!!
Simply because I had slightly better memory to handle Spore education,
means that I have to be solely responsible for everything?
My elder bro’s signed onto the Airforce nearly 5 years ago,
how has he contributed to me? to my education loan?
to the household? to everyone?
Now, he’s gonna have his own family soon!?
the sack is gonna fall right on top of me.
BAM.
Not that I am being unfilial here to my parents,
but I see no equality nor democracy.
I wish I can contribute to the best of my ability,
I want my dad to quit working dangerously,
I want my younger bro to get gd education,
I want my family to live happily.
Yes I want all that.
But I also hope to have a family of my own soon.
How am I gonna accomplish all that?!
And how come my bro has done nth on his part for the past 5 yrs?
He only saved up money for his wedding!!?
If there is no gender equality,
I assume that in the olden days,
Boys treated like emperors are supposed to contribute the most to the family!
Why am I gettin the mistreatment PLUS excess contribution?
My bro even asked me to pay for his share to my mom when I get a job
Why am I supposed to do that?!
I supported myself with my own hard-earned money from JC1
Never asked a single penny from my family ever since.
Yet my 2 bros live in a luxury of their own with my mom’s money?
his poly education is deducted from my dad’s CPF.
he continues to get pocket money even till NS.
Now, he only contribute a SMALL fraction of his pay to household.
To summarize my entire situation,
Life is Life.
Update:
the 2 parasites did not turn up for the GMS critique session,
part of me wanna see how they fake it to prove that they have done a lot
part of me is secretly happy that I no longer have to face em
any longer..
it was solely 3-man show
never before has anyone been absent from this..
well, now the whole world can see for themselves
that we were victims ourselves
neither did we sms them to request for an excuse for their absence,
nor did they come up with lies to explain
i even wonder if they secretly gang up together
to stun us with such disappearing act!
but seriously speaking, we were not surprised at all.
simply because,
We no longer care!
